Thursday, April 29, 2010

One Of Those Weeks

Do you ever have one of those weeks when you don't feel like you're doing anything particularly well?

It's been one of those weeks for me. I haven't felt like I've been doing particularly well as a mother, a wife, a minister, a friend...anything. I can't make a long list of things I've done particularly poorly, but I just haven't felt that anything was done well.

As I write that, I can't help but ask, "What do I mean by that?" Saying I haven't done things well isn't about evaluating the performance, but more about presence.

I haven't been fully present in my roles or with the people I care about. It's just been one of those busy, stressed out weeks. And I am missing the people in my life because I feel like I'm running from one thing to another.

It helped me to read what Jennifer wrote at Conversion Diary in a recent post about some early morning reading she did (you can read the entire entry here: Toward the end of her entry she writes: As Francis de Sales points out, it's not that those little worries of life don't matter at all -- obviously, we have to attend to the duties in front of us -- but that we should always strive to keep them in perspective. In the end, they're not nearly as important as how much we loved, i.e. how well we served God.

Maybe on these weeks, I need to refocus on being present, loving generously, serving God well. Maybe if those went to the top of my to-do list, the other things that need to get done would be more likely to get done. And, the extra cuddles that would surely happen in the meantime would certainly be a benefit.

1 comment:

This Heavenly Life said...

I think we're having the same week, Jill :) My to-do list keeps staying the same length, because I'm skipping from thing to thing, without much accomplishment. I'm actually taking drastic organizational steps (yikes) to fix the mess I'm in. But I like your (and Francis de Sales') way better :)